Recently I have found myself being really angry with people. Not for the things that they've done to me, because those details are minute in the scheme of things. But just for being there in plain sight. I am having crazy mood swings where I just cannot handle these people that I used to love so much. I'm not talking about my family though which I am very grateful for. Just friends at school. I cannot go a day without thinking to myself "I really don't want to sit here and talk to you" or "I really do not want to be your friend" but at the same time I don't want to hurt them because I know somewhere inside of me I absolutely love them. It's been tough.
On the other hand I have grown close to those who haven't been bothering me, those people have helped me a lot through this transition and I am very grateful for them.
I have also found myself more and more angry at people in relationships. I just want to talk to my friends and not have to deal with their significant other always hovering around them. I want my guy best friend back, I want to be able to be his best friend again without his girlfriend always around. It's all really just selfishness, in all reality. I know that I can't just take people away from each other and that that would be wrong of me to do, but I can't help but dream. I see so many people being strangled in a relationship that it makes love look like a common commodity. It's not something awesome anymore. More often then not the couple is fighting and being awful to one another, and I just don't see the point in such a meaningless relationship. And sex is the only way to fix it to them. If that was the basis of your relationship then why bother?
That's enough bable. Ta Ta for now.
Love,
The Cat Lady
