When a girl is age 11-13 those are considered the awkward years right? Nothing fits right, you start caring about boys, you have to deal with those lady problems all coming at you at once and on top of all that you have these CRAZYYYY hormones that make you HATE everyone but LOVE them at the same time and it is so awkward. I remember being bothered by my own awkwardness. It was seriously such a big deal to me but now that I am 19 and I am pretty comfortable with myself the awkwardness is coming in different waves now... For example, I live with my parents which really isn't a big deal but maybe it is?? Do people think less of me cause I live with my mommy?? OR maybe people think its immature?? I know in reality people probably don't care but like hello that is a HUGE decision, (which I made and I am moving out holla at me). Another one?? My friends are starting to get into real relationships like ADULT relationships where they are getting engaged to BE MARRIED. And I am literally sitting here like uh hello you guys wanna go to the mall this weekend?? Oh, you have a date right okay and then I just watch Netflix on my moms couch or in my bed all weekend.
Okay so yeah it's awkward. I have a lot of decisions to make but I feel like I have absolutely no right to make any of the decisions for myself. I'm on the border of wanting all my independence all the time but still wanting my mom to take me to the doctor when I am sick, does that make sense? Or am I the only awkward Young Adult??
Well, you'll be happy to know that I have made some grown up decisions recently. I bought a car, I have 2 serious jobs, I am going to school full time, annnnnd I am moving into my own place THIS week. Are you proud of me? I thought so.
Have a great weekend people who read my blog (if you exist). I love you all.
Love,
The Cat Lady.
